Pinterest keeping me busy

I've been a bit quiet here. Venting a lot of frustration on Pinterest. It is rather addictive. Check it out: http://pinterest.com/charlhanson/

Stiff cock, can't cum

I'm sitting here with a massive hard-on. We've been trying to get pregnant unsuccessfully for a few months and tomorrow I'm going for a sperm analysis. This means I've had to "withhold" for 3 days. And that means I'm now the horniest motherfucker on the face of the planet. Just a little over 12 hours to go then I can do my thing in the cup.

I suspect this also has something to do with my cuckold fantasy. The fact that I haven't been able to knock up the GF does raise some feelings of inadequacy and I guess getting a bull to fuck her and make her pregnant is some kind of escape from that. Typing that my cock just got even harder. Don't know how I'm going to make it through the next 12 hours!

Cuckold fantasies

I suspect this is just my severe sexual frustration shining through, but over the last few months, I have had increasingly many and vivid cuckold fantasies.

O, how I wish my girlfriend would bring home a muscular black dude with a big cock and make me watch as he bangs her brains out. Forced to sit in the corner and watch in horror as her pussy gets stretched and hearing her scream in a combination of delight and pain. Writing this makes me hard.

I love every bit of this fantasy. The humiliation, the sexual perversion, the big cock, the GF's pleasure, the bull's pleasure, the humble servitude. Licking her juices off his cock. Licking his juices from her pussy. Helping them clean up. Helping her dress up sexy for him. Him owning her pussy and rubbing it in my face.

I also fantasize about being the bull for someone else. Perhaps something I'm more likely to do. I'm a pretty fit, strong, attractive guy, with a decent size cock. So probably a more natural role for me. Would love to tell some hot wife's sissy husband what I think of his tiny excuse for a dick while his wife's sucking my cock. O the things I would do to him. Make him watch as I finger his wife in a restaurant. Make him pay for a hotel room and wait in the lobby while I go upstairs and fuck her all night long. Get him to clean up the kitchen so I can fuck her on the table. Tie up his dick so he can't even get a hard on. Disappear for a few weeks with his wife to some exotic location only allowing her to phone him when my cock's in her pussy and then only allowing her to use selected phrases like "O his cock is so much bigger than yours". Making him eat my cum from her pussy. I could go on and on and on...

I wouldn't even think of discussing this with my GF, because I know she won't be interested, but god I love thinking about it. And there's some pretty hot porn available in this genre that I don't mind jerking off to at all!

Pretty sick, when I think about it I'm not sure why this actually turns me on. Not sure if this is something I would ever really do either. Maybe just a fantasy thing, but one thing I do know is that it makes me hard faster than you can say big black cock.

Why won't my girlfriend wear sexy things?

My girlfriend wears nothing sexy. She's in her mid-30s, good-looking, fit. Many of her friends/siblings wear clothes that I find quite sexy. But she just doesn't.

Frustrates the hell out of me.

About a year ago I bought her some wickedweasel lingerie. At first she didn't want to even put that on, but I convinced her eventually. She looked hot. I told her so. We ended up having some of the best sex we've ever had.

She's never worn it since.

I've asked her about it twice. Told her I would love to see her wear it again and she said that she would. The last time several months ago. Yet, nothing... Yesterday we went out for a movie and dinner. I bought her flowers, I did the washing. I'm no fashion designer, but I pull out my best shirt/jeans/jacket combo. All she needs to do is get ready to go. The weather is perfect. What does she wear? Plain cotton panties, sportsbra, polo shirt, jeans. WTF!

This is why I watch porn behind her back. This is why I will cheat on her at the first available opportunity. Because she simply doesn't even try to be sexy. No inkling that she needs to turn me on a bit sometimes. This leaves me so fucking horny every time I see anyone in a short skirt or tight top that I don't think I would be able to resist any sort of seduction by a woman who's anywhere above a 6/10.

We've been together for a long time (>10 years) and it was better initially. She used to wear things like camisole tops (even without bra), sexy shorts, etc. Never fancied skirts or dresses much, but at least back then she showed a bit of skin every now and then.

I've spoken to her about it so many times, I just don't feel it's worth it even trying anymore. I love her, but I need to see her sexy side sometimes and it just ain't there. What to do?

My no make-up rant

Ok, this is not what I created this blog for, but I'm going to start with a no make-up rant.

Why the fuck do women feel the need to wear make-up. I hate it. Almost every woman I know looks best with no or very minimal make-up. We're going to see what you look like eventually. We hate kissing layers of paint. You look like a clown. Stop it for god's sake! Ever kissed a girl who had too much make-up on? It's positively disgusting. Go outside, find something dusty, give it a lick. That's what it's like.

I'm starting this blog to vent some sexual frustration, but I just had to get that off my chest first.

This is one thing I really love about my girlfriend. She never wears make-up. Nothing. No mascara, no whatever you call any of those layers of paint, no eyeliner, no lipstick. Just herself. She uses loads of creams, sunblocks and moisturizers so her skin looks pretty good naturally, but she never, ever violates it with make-up. And her skin tastes fantastic.

Next post will probably be some porn with a hottie wearing loads of make-up, but I won't notice because she'll look so hot :-)