Lance Armstrong is a dick for being so apologetic

I watched the Lance Armstrong Oprah interview the other night.

What a load of bull.

Basically Lance is saying he doped a bit, but not too much. He was careful to not get caught and he did it because he believed (quite rightfully I would say) that he was competing against others who were doing it too. And he believed that he wouldn't really be able to compete with them unless he did it too.

And he's sorry. This is where he loses me. I think it's fine he did it. I think it's fine he tried to hide it. And I think that's what he really believes as well.

He was protecting something he had worked very hard for and hurt some people in the process. Sure there's a little bit of despicable there, but overall I see very little wrong with the old Lance and a whole lot wrong with the pretentious new Lance.

Why apologize? He isn't really sorry, is he? I'm sure he's sorry that the whole thing has been exposed. And he's sorry that he's bearing the brunt of it. But he isn't sorry he doped. If he hadn't doped, he would be a nobody. Does anyone remember any of the names of those guys who say they competed against him without doping? I sure don't. But I know Lance Armstrong's name. I know him as a guy who did all he had to do to win the Tour de France 7 times. He's a champion. A winner. That's what pro sport is all about. He didn't win the Tour de France by doping. He won it by training fucking hard for many years. He doped a little to help him train harder and to help him get better. But it was still hard work. He was willing to sacrifice more and take bigger risks and he won.

Imagine this scenario. You can train your ass off for 10 years and achieve nothing; or you can train your ass off for 10 years, coordinate it with a careful program of supplementing with EPO and steroids, and be immortalized. I'm sure we would all choose the first option...

Does that mean they should allow doping? Not sure. It's a tough question.

Let's consider testosterone (something Lance has now admitted to taking as part of his doping program). This is an anabolic steroid occurring naturally in the human body. Now, let's assume all the guys who took part in the Tour de France are 100% "clean". We measure all their testosterone levels and they all fall within the normal range with the minimum value being about 50% of the max value (this is quite possible within the normal range). Now, let's give the minimum value a name. Say Mitt. Let's give the maximum value a name. Say Barack. Barack wins the Tour, Mitt comes second. Is this fair? Obviously not. Mitt could double his testosterone level and still be within the normal range. And he would be able to build much stronger muscles and come back and beat the shit out of Barack.

But Mitt took a "performance enhancing" drug I hear you say. That's gotta be illegal. But Barack also took something performance enhancing. Like everything he ate. Every minute of training. Every protein shake. Every energy drink. None of these things are completely natural, all of these helped Barack enhance his performance.

I think ultimately the problem lies in the competitive nature of sport and the obscene value that society places on performance in sport. It really shouldn't matter that one guy can go slightly faster on a bike than another. And therein lies the problem. It does matter. We've made it matter by putting ridiculous prizes on such trivialities.

I don't know what the answer is, but I think Lance is less sincere now than he was 10 years ago. I prefer the old Lance.

Does this deserve to be cucked?

So here are some dick pics. Looking at these, I wonder if my previous post describing a fantasy to be a bull isn't a little overoptimistic. I tried to represent extremes here. The first pic is totally limp, shortly after getting out of the swimming pool (i.e. pretty much as small as it gets). The second one is after checking out some pretty nice porn. It was still a bit cold from the pool, so I'm pretty sure it can grow by another cm or two, but you should get the idea.

Overall, looking at these I do think my cock lends itself more to being that of a sissy white boy cucked by a big black dude than anything else. Let me know what you think.

Pinterest keeping me busy

I've been a bit quiet here. Venting a lot of frustration on Pinterest. It is rather addictive. Check it out: http://pinterest.com/charlhanson/

Stiff cock, can't cum

I'm sitting here with a massive hard-on. We've been trying to get pregnant unsuccessfully for a few months and tomorrow I'm going for a sperm analysis. This means I've had to "withhold" for 3 days. And that means I'm now the horniest motherfucker on the face of the planet. Just a little over 12 hours to go then I can do my thing in the cup.

I suspect this also has something to do with my cuckold fantasy. The fact that I haven't been able to knock up the GF does raise some feelings of inadequacy and I guess getting a bull to fuck her and make her pregnant is some kind of escape from that. Typing that my cock just got even harder. Don't know how I'm going to make it through the next 12 hours!

Cuckold fantasies

I suspect this is just my severe sexual frustration shining through, but over the last few months, I have had increasingly many and vivid cuckold fantasies.

O, how I wish my girlfriend would bring home a muscular black dude with a big cock and make me watch as he bangs her brains out. Forced to sit in the corner and watch in horror as her pussy gets stretched and hearing her scream in a combination of delight and pain. Writing this makes me hard.

I love every bit of this fantasy. The humiliation, the sexual perversion, the big cock, the GF's pleasure, the bull's pleasure, the humble servitude. Licking her juices off his cock. Licking his juices from her pussy. Helping them clean up. Helping her dress up sexy for him. Him owning her pussy and rubbing it in my face.

I also fantasize about being the bull for someone else. Perhaps something I'm more likely to do. I'm a pretty fit, strong, attractive guy, with a decent size cock. So probably a more natural role for me. Would love to tell some hot wife's sissy husband what I think of his tiny excuse for a dick while his wife's sucking my cock. O the things I would do to him. Make him watch as I finger his wife in a restaurant. Make him pay for a hotel room and wait in the lobby while I go upstairs and fuck her all night long. Get him to clean up the kitchen so I can fuck her on the table. Tie up his dick so he can't even get a hard on. Disappear for a few weeks with his wife to some exotic location only allowing her to phone him when my cock's in her pussy and then only allowing her to use selected phrases like "O his cock is so much bigger than yours". Making him eat my cum from her pussy. I could go on and on and on...

I wouldn't even think of discussing this with my GF, because I know she won't be interested, but god I love thinking about it. And there's some pretty hot porn available in this genre that I don't mind jerking off to at all!

Pretty sick, when I think about it I'm not sure why this actually turns me on. Not sure if this is something I would ever really do either. Maybe just a fantasy thing, but one thing I do know is that it makes me hard faster than you can say big black cock.

Why won't my girlfriend wear sexy things?

My girlfriend wears nothing sexy. She's in her mid-30s, good-looking, fit. Many of her friends/siblings wear clothes that I find quite sexy. But she just doesn't.

Frustrates the hell out of me.

About a year ago I bought her some wickedweasel lingerie. At first she didn't want to even put that on, but I convinced her eventually. She looked hot. I told her so. We ended up having some of the best sex we've ever had.

She's never worn it since.

I've asked her about it twice. Told her I would love to see her wear it again and she said that she would. The last time several months ago. Yet, nothing... Yesterday we went out for a movie and dinner. I bought her flowers, I did the washing. I'm no fashion designer, but I pull out my best shirt/jeans/jacket combo. All she needs to do is get ready to go. The weather is perfect. What does she wear? Plain cotton panties, sportsbra, polo shirt, jeans. WTF!

This is why I watch porn behind her back. This is why I will cheat on her at the first available opportunity. Because she simply doesn't even try to be sexy. No inkling that she needs to turn me on a bit sometimes. This leaves me so fucking horny every time I see anyone in a short skirt or tight top that I don't think I would be able to resist any sort of seduction by a woman who's anywhere above a 6/10.

We've been together for a long time (>10 years) and it was better initially. She used to wear things like camisole tops (even without bra), sexy shorts, etc. Never fancied skirts or dresses much, but at least back then she showed a bit of skin every now and then.

I've spoken to her about it so many times, I just don't feel it's worth it even trying anymore. I love her, but I need to see her sexy side sometimes and it just ain't there. What to do?

My no make-up rant

Ok, this is not what I created this blog for, but I'm going to start with a no make-up rant.

Why the fuck do women feel the need to wear make-up. I hate it. Almost every woman I know looks best with no or very minimal make-up. We're going to see what you look like eventually. We hate kissing layers of paint. You look like a clown. Stop it for god's sake! Ever kissed a girl who had too much make-up on? It's positively disgusting. Go outside, find something dusty, give it a lick. That's what it's like.

I'm starting this blog to vent some sexual frustration, but I just had to get that off my chest first.

This is one thing I really love about my girlfriend. She never wears make-up. Nothing. No mascara, no whatever you call any of those layers of paint, no eyeliner, no lipstick. Just herself. She uses loads of creams, sunblocks and moisturizers so her skin looks pretty good naturally, but she never, ever violates it with make-up. And her skin tastes fantastic.

Next post will probably be some porn with a hottie wearing loads of make-up, but I won't notice because she'll look so hot :-)